“an existent Love-Being”
i view my existence like a magical flashes, where fairies come and go like a shooting star… a fragmented tale, sometimes i have the fear of the dark night and then the wonderful spring folly frog’s croaks… my joyful playful times seemingly too short compared to my agonizing fear of a coming storm. _times when i consequently fall into a ravine yet my being’s intense eagerness for discoveries, something beyond my understanding, makes me surface to freedom.
why, why do i wish to live, when everyday of my life… i need to struggle?
why, why am i in constant opposition with what i am, while nature fleetingly smiles her way?
why, why am i a rebel like Eve of Eden?
why am i created… surely, God has his reason
as a human being, i create:
sometimes for wealth, for beauty, for competition…
but God needs nothing of nothing of these
so, tell me, why why am i created?
nature, as created are so willingly obedient
happy contented satisfied, the way they are
while i, a human being distort destroy intervene
am i trying to compete with God?
does God have emotion?
loneliness made Him create me
religion says, He is a jealous God
He wants all my love
for Him but Him alone
am i LOVE?
am i a LOVE-Being
are my life struggles because
i refuse myself as an Existent Love-Being
_ade caparas manilah sydney 2017